Sometime in life people feel that life just passes by. Everything goes the same everyday… you wake up in the morning, go to work, go home, and feel tired, sleep. Everything goes in the same repetition. Like a song played hundreds time in CD player… firstly play you like it a lot, you sing along, but then after hundreds of it, you are just sick of it.
Yes, sometime I feel my life just passes me by and I feel sick in it. Especially in the beginning of 2015. I had injury last year which caused me to be in the wheel chair for almost 4 months and made me using crouch for nearly 3 months. I had miserable feeling all time. I felt my life passes me by everyday. I got angry to God for letting me experienced that 6 hell months. I was not a happy person at all.
In the midst of that life repitition… however, universe had unique ways to make my life more exciting and colorful. I believe it is fate.
Fate allowed me to meet new people who brought some spices in my life, made me laugh, happy, fall in love, break the heart, cry, and feel other mixed emotions. Fate brought me to new experiences that I had never been before. I also made mistake that I was not proud of, learned from it, and it taught me many lessons to get wiser.
The most important things was… all those occurances reminded me that… hey… God gives me a life, an exciting one, and a purposed life. In all my brokenness, I am being reminded that God loves me with His unchanging love. Life will be bumpy… with rocky roads as well as ups and downs. But I am not alone. What matters to me, matters to God. Even he counts and put my tears in His jar.
Today I am turning 39 years old. When I flashed back and contemplated of what had happened in the past one year, especially in 2015, I feel grateful and blessed. Things happens for some reasons… I might not know every reasons, but I believe it is for my own goodness.
I am excited for my upcoming journey. My pray for this year is that I will have a fruitful life, not just a life that passes me by. I want to be blessings for others… and brings changes and meaning to many people wherever I am. I want to be a better person… have more love, more joy, more generousity to share with my loved ones as well as with less unfortunate people.
Today, I say. thank you Jesus for everything. Forever I will say, God is good.