I think life is about taking decision… starting from small things like clothes that you want to wear every morning or food you eat for lunch or dinner, car or house that you want to buy, to big things like the school or job you take, the religion you choose to believe, and the person you want to marry. You can also decide whether you want to be happy or not with your decisions. Life is about choices.
Some people are brave enough to take big risks. Some people just love to be in the comfort zone. Some people take decision with careful action and calculated risks. Some people do things impulsively. Nothing is wrong with neither ones… At the end of the day, it’s your life that you are living. It’s your life!
However, not every decision is wise or right. People must have made mistakes along their way. People sometime make bad choices. We are just human after all. What we need to remember is that every decision will lead you to different path of life. Make sure that you don’t live the life that you will regret someday.
I am not kind of people who like to do peculiar and wild things because I am comfortable with my normal life. I like my stable normal life. But my life could not be called normal last year. It was completely peculiar, wild, and dark for my standard. I made some very bad decisions. I chose the road that I knew from the start I should not take. I should have known the ending from the very start. However, I had chosen to take my big risks. Apparently, it was the biggest mistake I had ever made in my entire 38 years life.
Tonight I am thinking deeply… Do I ever regret what had happened? Do I regret my decisions? The answer is NO. Along with the heartaches and pains caused by my decisions, in fact I learn a lot. I learn about people’s character. I learn about seeing things from different people’s point of view. I learn about friendship. I learn about hanging on in the difficult and painful period. I learn to be sensitive and understand my inner being as a woman. I learn the differences about being a woman and a man.
And the most important thing is I learn about trusting the One who decide our fates. To trust that everything in this world is just and the Universe works in its own magical way to give back to people according to how they give to others. Bottomline… to have faith.
I know that I am living a life that I will not regret. At least I tried. At least I took my chances and I spoke my words. No regret, although maybe it’s the biggest mistake in my life.